Repairing the Damage

There is a Fear that resides in me, scared of the silence.

Unnerved by the stillness and call of the Here and Now.

Constantly does the Ego wish for and clamor about seeking desires, comforts and ease of living, ambitions and endless needs met. 

Ever moving outward, forward and away from that quiet just as it runs from consequence, responsibility and accountability. 

What is it in the Silence I fear?

What will I become in that Silence?

What truly is Silence, Void or "Nothingness", will it consume me?

The me that I have created for years, that I have come to rely on, the one who has tricked, lead astray and misguided for so long? Is this a struggle between the release of my self and the approach of the One true Self?

This inner battle releases tension, where I recognize fears, insecurities and doubts, so old, molded/putrid and ancient.

Surely it must be a calming, protective, nurturing state of Pure Light & Pure Love. 

So why run? Why not embrace?

Yet there is an apprehension that plagues me, screaming that life will pass me by in that state of stillness. 

This inertia will consume me and allow me to move no further, go no deeper and feel no freedom.

I will remain at rest, left alone, a mental Death.

Dead in my physical while my mental wanders restlessly about.

Yes, there resides in me an unease of being vulnerable, unprotected and without a self created 

safety-net. Throwing myself into the abyss at my own accord, jumping in even. 

Left adrift, floating in a sea of "Nothingness" to become nothingness.

I fear this Step on the Path, yet it is the only true release, only freedom awaits where true life begins!

Free of blinders, Maya and Illusion of Glamour, false pretense and self-focused existence.

I Fear.....

But Here Goes.....

Step by Step....I tread the Path Alone..as one with One...

I shed..

In Love with Light,

                                                           Me..